Today's lesson: Comparing our deen with The Sahabah's

Today i fast (it's sunnah) and spontaneously after asr, my sistur asked me to accompany her exercise. I was not interested at first cuz well, i was fasting (that's a pretty good reason, enough to deny her request) then i remembered our prophet Muhammad SAW used to lead an army to Badr war, the first war in Islam, on the second day of Ramadhan.

I was intimidated by the amount of eman The Sahabah had back then. While i was there sitting on the comfy couch, watching Korean drama on One, i feel useless really. Being a good productive Muslim requires u to work things out inside and outside, u know. Being fit and healthy is one of it. "Cakap nk jd pejuang Islam, xkn takat ketua bidadari je kut, Arin.." So after the mini-monolog-war between me and my lazziness, i got up, changed and asked my dad a permission to exercise with my sis outside, and he agreed to send us to the gym since he doesn't like it when we girls jog along the beach considering our safety especially nowadays with all the cases with kidnapping and organ selling. Quite dramatic but it's possible okay? So please understand his concern.

The point is, when u feel u've done enough, think again. The Sahabah done things beyond everything u've ever done. Well why don't u try to compete that, Arin.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah..

I have to admit, everything comes from You.
I asked too much from You.
There's always a point i almost give up with everything,
Gallons of tears i shed in the fear of failing my carrier, in the pursuit of contributing to the ummah,
I was so weak to the point i can't even walk, eat and sleep well,
I can't even decide what to do.
i whine too many times along this painful journey i chose.
It felt super duper impossible. 'I don't eat, i don't sleep, i don't take a bath. I don't have any super power to do these!

' Yet i forgot, how You helped Musa A.S crossed the Red Sea, when they said 'there's no more hope, we are trapped'

But You made it happened. 'ohh Allah, i can't handle this! I can't handle this! This is too much! I am not capable of doing this.
Ohh Allah, help mee! Help mee!' Indeed, Your help is near.
Ya Allah, i asked too much, i give too little.
How can i repay this kindness and mercy of Yours?

Your humble servant,
Arinah Fatinah

pemikiran yang sakit..

Dat's it. Can't stand it bila org tegur kite, kite pon gigih pegi stalk segala gmba, status, history bagai to search for a point to fire them back. Lephass tu ha berjela komen kau kak berserta pendahuluan, isi2 standard cambridge serta penutup like a boss utk fire bdk yg niat murni dia nk nasihat kite tu.

3 things here:
1: 'sblum tegur aku, tgk diri kau dulu dah soleh/solehah ke belum' satu statement yg x berpendidikan.
Tak perlu tunggu jd pak ustad atau maksum mcm nabi utk tegur org. Kalau nk tggu jd malaikat, xpernah bt slh, mmg xde lah org nk tegur menegur dlm dunia ni, ha dgn awk, sy, kite sume meh kite lingkup menuju neraka reramai ye, does that sounds fun? Sbb kite sbg manusia yg slalu prasan bagus, agk susah nk muhasabah diri, sbb tu Allah hadirkn org sekeliling utk sdrkn. Clear?

2: org yg nk menegur, mohon tahu erti tegur dan aibkan. Kalau btul niat nk tegur, nabi ajar tegur in private. Bukannya awk pegi update status lpstu tag dia, atau tegur terang2 in public,komen kt ig dia, gmba dia pstu ckp 'sy tegur ikhlas' to let the world knows what a good muslim u r. It makes u feel good n superior rite? Kalau jd kt kite pon, kite reti plak malu kak. Sblum kite berhijrah pon, kite sama je teruk mcm dia kn. Bersyukur la Allah dh bg hidayah tp jgn pndang rendah kat org yg sdg merangkak kt bwh tu, yg mne tau tgh struggle bersungguh hati nk lwn nafsu, cari redha Allah. Who knows nnti Allah angkat darjat dia lg tinggi dr kite, ha melopong la tgk satg.

3: org yg kne tegur, kalau sentap n x leh trima, dear u have some ego issue. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. pon pnh kne tegur dgn Tuhan, who do u think u r smpai xleh trima teguran? Let it sink okay? Walaupun teguran tu kdg2 xbtul, it's okay, myb tu cara Allah nk guriskan ego kite yg tinggi melangit tu.

Apa khabar hati kita?

'mulut aku teruk, suka menyumpah tp hati aku baik'

HATI MENENTUKAN PERILAKU MANUSIA
"ketahuilah dalam setiap jasad itu ada seketul daging yang apabila ia baik maka baiklah seluruh jasad dan apabila ia rosak, maka rosaklah seluruh jasad. Ketahuilah ia adalah hati" -hadith ke 6, hadith 40 An-Nawawi

Kalau hati itu baik, maka kebaikan itu akn terserlah ke seluruh tubuh, dari segi percakapan, pertuturan, perilaku dan personaliti kite. Mulut akn mengeluarkn perkataan yg baik2, tubuh badan akn melakukan kebaikan, mata memandang perkara2 yg baik, kaki melangkah ke tmpt2 yg baik, masjid, majlis ilmu etc.

Kalau perilaku kita tidak baik, adakah logik utk kite katakan hati kita baik? 'aku xsolat, x menutup aurat, langgar perintah Tuhan, tp hati aku baik'
Kalau hatinya baik, sudah tentu dia akn berperlakuan baik, bukan? Sebab hatinya faham, ape yg baik dan ape yg buruk.
Dan kita kene faham.. Kefahaman intelektual semata tidak mampu menandingi kefahaman hati kerana kefahaman akademik jarang mampu mengubah personaliti dan gaya hidup manusia. Ianya sekadar info2 yg digunakan utk memudahkn kehidupan tp kefahaman hati mampu mengubah hidup seseorang sehingga menyentuh sanubari sehingga berjaya mengubah haluan hidup mereka.

Ayuh rawat hati kita selalu!

The prophet said 'the one who points to something good gets the reward of doing good'
Help me and yourselves get more reward by sharing this effort and may Allah blesses every single effort we did in this holy month of Ramadhan.

Find your one and only Illah

Apa guna cintakan dunia hingga akhirat berciciran.
Kejar akhirat, dunia pasti dlm genggaman.
Bercakap menggunakan pengalaman,
Tujuan dilontarkan ke dunia bukan semata utk mencari pasangan,
Itu bukan penentu masa hadapan,
Mereka dihadirkan utk melengkapkan kehidupan.
Jgn jadikan ia satu-satunya jalan di dpn.
Lengkapkan dirimu dgn ciri2 yg Tuhan inginkan.
Menuju hari pasti yg disebut-sebut di dlm Quran,
Barulah hidupmu tampak seperti satu jihad dan perjuangan.

Ada apa dgn dunia?

Today we went to Matrade since people have been promoting this event in ig (kantoi bnyk follow ig shop berbanding ig memember, so if i don't like ur picture, no offense, it takes ages for me to scroll all the way down to find a single non-igshop-photo).

Soo...
It was a big massive event. I tot they only have it in one hall, it turned out there were 2 giant halls, with many secret big doors leading to another sub-kinda-halls. And of course we spent hours there, a lot of pretty dresses, some with cheap-affordable prices, some with crying prices, a lot of offers and promotions too. Urgh, it was super tired, rasa nk trcabut skru pinggang n lutut berjalan sane sini, sini sana.. Jumpa krusi je duduk, jumpa yg mcm meja rupe mcm krusi pon ah bantailah duduk jgk. Last2 ha, karpet kdai ni mcm best, duduk jgk. Penat tp x puas lg membeli. Ah i think u know how it feels. Like this is once in a life punya opportunity, u gotta buy it before other peeps grab it or b4 the offer ends. And the feelings of 'hish, mana tau kdai dpn2 tu lg cantik, harus jalan lagi ni!' Muhasabah diri.

Smbil2 duduk berpenat diri tu, i remembered i didn't perform my prayers yet (boleh jamak but the feeling of melambatkn solat tu is killing me). Then i tot by myself. There have been massive reminders encouraging us to take the opportunity of this holy month of Ramadhan to grab all the rewards it offers. Buat 8 rakaat tarawikh pon dh penat, tp penat yg dah x snggup nk tambah any more rakaat lg dah, 8 tu pon da rasa 'da rasa iman upgrade bnyk dah ni'. Tp kann... Jalan shopping smpai nk patah2 segala tulang pinggang n tulang blakang sanggup plak.

Ok, da tade mood nk beli lagii..

~Ramadhan la sgt aku ni. Hmm
~Kesangupan kejar dunia > kesanggupan kejar akhirat.
Dah la arin. :'(

la tahzan..

Beribu sesalan yg kau ratap tiap kali sendirian xkn mampu mengubah tiap langkah yg kau turap saat kau toleh ke belakang.

Air mata yg kau banjirkan di bantal dan tilam mana mampu membasuh dosa silam yg kau palitkan di nota keaiban, disimpan kukuh dibawa ke kubur.

Malunya aku di hadapan Tuhan, meminta agar setiap najis dosa diampunkan dan dilupakan.

Sudikah Tuhan melupakan sedang aku sndiri menongkat diri membawa dosa2 yg membeban?